For many years the focus of my life has been my own personal growth. I believe I have achieved a moderate amount of success. However, like many others in today's economy, finances have been a source of concern.
I fully believe in the principles of the law of attraction and consciously live by them. I know that my mindset is critical to my situation regardless of what the news reports say is happening in the world around me.
Our family business is in construction and although this is reported to be the industry that is suffering the most, my husband and I have continued to believe that we would be fine and I am pleased to say that we have been blessed with a full schedule of work with only minor slow periods.
We have been openly grateful for this as we have witnessed many long-time construction businesses close their doors in recent months. We truly believe our good fortune is a direct result of our believing that we would in fact get work and be okay.
That being said, a couple of weeks ago I found myself in a situation that was the test of all tests. We had completed a project and were awaiting payment. This payment was substantial. We had used a great deal of our resources to operate (supply materials, payroll, general overhead etc) and so Christmas shopping was on hold until we received this payment.
Typically, I am one of those people who have their Christmas shopping completed by Thanksgiving. The fact that it was a week into December and I hadn't done a thing was new to me... (We are raising our 11 & 12 yr old grandchildren).
Of course the topic of conversation focused on what was on their wish lists. And as they talked amongst themselves about what they hoped to get for Christmas my heart would skip a beat or two as I began to wonder if I would be able to locate the items on their lists at such a late date.
But I would simply focus on what I did want and continued to believe that all would be well. As they days went by and we didn't receive the payment, I began to struggle to keep the negative "what ifs" out of my mind. I would catch myself thinking "How are we going to provide a Christmas to our grandkids with little money?" or "I had better come up with a "plan B" in case the money doesn't come through in time".
Each day, as I struggled to maintain a positive mindset, I felt as though I was losing the battle. I voiced my concerns to my husband and he reassured me that everything would work out...this to both of our surprise made it worse!
In response to his positive and supportive attitude, I found myself feeling more upset! I couldn't believe he was being so calm...after all Christmas was now only a week and a half away! And then it really hit me, I wasn't breathing. Not that I couldn't breathe, but I realized that I wasn't breathing normally. I was breathing a very shallow breath. I was functioning just fine, it wasn't interfering with my abilities, I just recognized that I was so tense that my breathing was minimal at best. I felt panicked.
I called my husband and when he answered he said," I just got the check and it is in the bank"! Wow, what a relief. After two days of barely breathing, it returned to normal in less than a minute.
I was grateful and immediately went into prayer to thank God. Next, I grabbed my purse and my list and headed to the stores.
During the drive, I realized that had I only trusted and believed I could have saved myself so much anguish. I wondered why I hadn't. I consider myself an awakened soul...I am extremely educated in the field of positive thinking. My career is based on teaching others the value of understanding the power of their thoughts and to then let go and trust and yet I had just failed to practice what I preach.
Prior to this experience I had successfully maintained a positive attitude and seen the rewards of receiving miracles and blessings in our business...but somehow the lesson, this time, was lost. I entered into prayer again and thanked God for the test. Even though I failed, it showed me I had more work to do, and for that I was grateful.
Without completely understanding all of what had transpired, as I reached the parking lot of the local mall, I told myself that I would trust that I would find everything I had written on my list...everything I had intended to get for the children and all would be well. I then chose to let it go. I remember reciting "ho'oponopono" (a clearing and cleaning exercise) as I entered the store. "I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you".
By the end of the day my list was complete. I had not only found everything I had hoped to find, several items were marked down!
Being tested on the lesson of trusting reminded me that life is ever evolving and because of this we will always be faced with new situations to experience and that these are the times we will need to "pull up" what we have learned the most...and apply it!
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About the Author: Denny Hagel is co-author of "The Law of Attraction: The Next Generation" and co-owner of Innovative Parenting LLC, home to the "Missing Secret to Parenting", a company dedicated to helping parents teach the principles of the law of attraction to their children to provide them with the skills to live their best life! For more information and insights click on: =>http://www.InnovativeParentingLLC.com
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